Living Uncomfortable

Day 61 - December 12, 2021

I woke up this morning and didn’t feel the best but spent time with Jesus, had some rose tea, and looked on Amazon for a bit.

After a while we hoping in the car to head to church and Auntie was telling someone off on the phone so loudly that nothing else was able to be done in the car. I had headphones in and could not hear my music over her voice. When we arrived at church we were late. All the songs were in Telugu so I could not understand. Again, no translation was given but I could pick up enough of the words in the sermon and prayer to understand which text it was and what was being prayed for. Basically Uncle prayed that I would give money to provide the kids with gifts for Christmas. He also prayed for each member of his family and then he concluded the prayer. It made me chuckle and very confused. I feel very uncomfortable being put in situations where I am expected to provide something that I honestly don't have the resources to provide. That is why we have a Heavenly Father, right? In part at least, because he promises to provided for our daily needs.

As we were leaving church today I noticed a dedication plaque on the side of the building with several people's names on it. For some reason the names at the top stood out to me and I kept reading them and rereading them. I wonder what their experience was like when they were here? Were they also kept in their room for days on end and not granted permission to go anywhere without approved supervision or someone following them? Surely not. Surely what I have been experiencing doesn't happen to everyone that comes to this city.